Yesterday I had an ultra sound.

Doctors don’t seem to be telling me anything. They can see something, but don’t bother explaining it to me. After the ultrasound yesterday, my doctor asked if she could could do an internal one on me. I said, “No”. For one reason mainly. I’m on my period, and I would not be compfortable with that at all. So I will be going back. But of course I have no idea what’s going on…

On the bright side of my life, I’m going to be celebrating New Years eve in Melbourne baby!

I was a little terror when I was thirteen years old. My parents had seperated. I was angry, but when I showed it to my parents they just thought it was a regular act at home…

 I started to cause trouble at school. I started fights, came to school drunk and smoked in the bathrooms. It was rough, and I did all this stupid shit because I wanted to show my parents how much they had hurt me. A stupid way of showing. But when your thirteen years old, there are new ways to gain your parents attention. I had bad marks in school and was failing the majority of my subjects.

My homeroom teacher noticed how much I was struggling. He pulled me aside one day and said to me, “Belinda, I’m aware of your troubles at home. But don’t let your parents hold back. If you think they’ve given up on you. Don’t think that. But if you refuse to believe me. Then don’t give up for me, or more importantly…don’t give up on yourself”.

He’s made me hold onto that for all those years. I cleaned up my act. I did better in school, acted better and had a more positive attitude on life. All thanks to Mr Fowler.

Unfortunately, he passed away from a heart attack yesterday. I just wanted to thank him, for not giving up on me. Believing in me, and understanding my world at the time. He was an incredible teacher, and I feel bad for giving him a rough time back then. I was a real bitch to him, but when I left school I realised…he just wanted me to do well in life for me. We do everything for ourselves. Don’t let people bring you down. Keep your head up and look at the future and the sunshine.

Rest in peace Sir.