Tuesday was Pepper’s big day. He had his operation for his Entropian.

Early Tuesday morning, my sister and I drove Pepper to the vet. The little guy was super excited to jump into the car. As we arrived at the vet, Pepper was barking at other dogs. The nurse led us into the waiting room. She sat us down and explained to us all the warnings and dangers of Pugs during surgery. The main concern is their breathing. I had to sign a few papers, which I must admit it was scary. Unfortunately I had to pay extra for Pepper to have fluids during the surgery. I mean, after she told me the risks, I didn’t mine paying extra to make sure he would come out even healthier. I also asked for a blood test to make sure that he had no other issues. Once that was all done, I handed the leash to the nurse. Pepper tried to follow me outside. I had to trick him to turn around and follow the nurse out. Oh that was a guitl trip. I was wondering what he thought when he turned around and saw that we weren’t there anymore.

It was a long wait, that’s for sure. We dropped him off at 8:40 AM. We waited, and waited for the vet to call us so we could pick him up. I finally received a phone call at 4PM. They told me that the surgery was a success and Pepper was recovering. I was allowed to pick him up at 6PM. I rushed down when the time was near. We sat with the surgeon and he told us all about the medication that Pepper has to take now. Some ointment, anti biotics, pain killers and also some eye drops which had his blood mixed in. I swear this dude just talked, and talked, and talked. Dude, give me my dog back. He explained that they operated on both eyes and how Pepper will have to wear a cone collar for 3 weeks to protect his eyes.

The time arrived and the vet bought Pepper out. As soon as I saw him I screamed, “HELLO BABY”. I thought about it later and I sounded like a crazy lady. He handed Pepper into my arms, and you know what he did the cute little fucker!? He pissed all down my leg. I took it as a Fuck You MUM!!!! We drove him home. Fed him some Chicken, and then let him rest for the entire evening. He was snuggled on my lap and he also slept on Justin for a bit. It was adorable. He really hates his cone though. He’s walking into everything and doing anything in his power to get that plastic off his head. Three weeks my little Pepper, 3 weeks!

Thank you to everyone who tweeted me during the day. It was so sweet of you guys. Last night was hard, I’m back home now and I feel lost without him. Feeling lousy. I had a big cry last night, my boyfriend looked after me with cuddles though. Weren’t as good as Pepper cuddles though. Below are some photos of Pepper after his surgery!

Just over a week now my Pug; Pepper, has been very sick. His eye has been acting up. It was full of gunk and we noticed a scratch on his eye. We took him to the vet and found out that my little man has something that you call Entropian.

Entropion is the inward rolling of all or part of the eyelid and can affect anywhere from one to all four of the eyelids. The result of this eyelid inversion is that the hair from the eyelid skin rubs on the corneal and conjunctival surfaces. With mild entropion, in which there is little inversion and contact with the ocular surfaces, there may only be low-grade discomfort and excessive tearing. When the irritation is severe, however, the patient will have chronic pain and serious injury can develop. Self-trauma, due to the irritation, can contribute to the overall damage as well. Entropion is a significant problem because if it remains uncorrected, it will persist as a chronic source of discomfort. Ultimately, sight can be affected because of corneal inflammation, scarring, pigmentation, and/or ulceration.

It is common for Pugs to have entropion of the inner aspect of the lower eyelid. The result is that the eyelid hairs rub on the cornea. Pug corneas tend to pigment easily with this sort of irritation. In the early stages, the pigment will be confined to the inner aspects of the cornea. If left untreated, the pigment commonly progresses across the cornea. It is not uncommon at all for the cornea to become completely pigmented if the underlying entropion remains. The damage to the cornea is called pigmentary keratitis and is a common cause of blindness in Pugs. It is much easier to prevent the pigment formation that to deal with it once it develops. Pugs with this type of entropion usually respond favorably to a procedure called medial canthoplasty. It involves narrowing of the eyelid opening with partial closure at the inner corner. The cosmetic result is not dramatic (once healed).

So my little Pugsly will be having surgery early Tuesday morning. It has been very scary. The vey has said it’s pretty much like a face lift but for a Pug. The only thing I’m worrying about is when he’s out and under the knife. Pugs are known to have breathing difficulties and when they’re under General anesthesia. My vet did assure me that Pepper does not have any breathing problems and that he is a healthy Pug. In fact the healthiest he’s ever seen. I know he’ll be ok, but it breaks my heart to know that he’s sick, in pain and I can’t make it better. This surgery will set me back a bit, but it’s worth it. I love my son with all of my heart. I will update you all via Twitter on Tuesday! He will also be wearing one of those cone hats for a week, so he doesn’t scratch his eye. Will most definately get a photo of that!

For now, here’s a picture below of Pepper. This was him on Thursday. We drove him to the vet. He has discovered that he can put his head out the window. What a champ. Follow me on Instagram for more photos! I’m working on a Instagram Recap blog post. I’ll try and get it up by the end of the week, but things will be hectic with looking after Pepper.

1. What did you do in 2012 that you’d never done before?
I stayed single for more than a year. That was honestly the best decision I made for myself. I truly found myself in the mess that was trailing behind me.

2. Did you keep your New Years resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
My new years resolution was to overcome Borderline Personality Disorder. And I did, although I still have Clinical Depression. I feel happier and stronger than ever.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not anyone close to me, but a lot of friends from school had a baby or even got married.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
My childhood friend Jeremy passed away at the age of 25. He passed away after falling into a diabetic coma.

5. What countries did you visit?
None. But I did visit my family in Canberra which is the capital city of Australia.

6. What would you like to have in 2013 that you lacked in 2012?
Feeling positive about life. To relax more and laugh easily. Less tears for sure.

7. What date from 2012 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
I really can’t pin point one. There were many big events throughout the year. I guess November 3rd when Justin asked me to be his girlfriend.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Overcoming Borderline Personality Disorder. It was a fucking hurdle.

9. What was your biggest failure?
So many regrets. Probaly being a raging slut and dating a lot of losers.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Borderline Personality Disorder.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
New furniture for my new place. New bed, bookshelf, clothes rack and recently a new computer desk.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Haha mine for sure.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and sad?
He knows who he is.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Cigarettes and alcohol.

15. What events did you get really, really, really excited about?
Meeting Norman Reedus at Comic Con. The Living End’s Retrospective Tour. Oh and Soundwave Music Festival.

16. What song(s) will always remind you of 2012?
Fun – We Are Young.

This song, this song. It pretty much relates to every Friday and Saturday night I went out and went home. With friends, guys I was dating, guys I went home with. I remember singing this song in the taxi or on the train onto a night of cheeky fun! I was happy for anyone to carry me home at the end of the night.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
Happy or Sad?: Happy.
Thin or Fat?: Thin.
Rich or Poor?: Poor.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Smiled!

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Crying and loving someone who didn’t love me back. I truly destroyed myself.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
for 2013. With my wonderful family and boyfriend.

21. Who did you spend the most time on the phone with?
Most likely my sister Regan.

22. Did you fall in love in 2012?
No. But I was still in love with someone.

23. How many one-night stands?
I lost count at 27.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
The Walking Dead.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
I don’t think so.

26. What was the best book you read?
A great book about true Australian Crimes.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery or rediscovery?
Garbage, Coldplay and Something Corprate.

28. What did you want and get?
Happiness.

29. What did you want and not get?
Love. But looks like I will get it this year.

30. What were your favorite films of this year?
The Campaign and The Muppet Movie.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 25. I went to the zoo in Canberra. I fed Giraffes and White Lions. Then when I came home to Adelaide I spent my birthday at The Adelaide Fringe in The Garden Of Unearthly Delights.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Having Jeremy still alive.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2012?
Belinda. I don’t know. I wear what I want, I don’t follow styles.

34. What kept you sane?
Music, Cigarettes, Wine and Friends.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most/least?
Norman Reedus – I want to touch him in naughty places.
Pitbull – Need I say more. Mr Worldwide!? More like Mr Douchebag!

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
I had enough of my own shit going on.

37. Whom did you miss?
Sam, friends I lost through my last relationship ending, my Pug Pepper.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Justin x

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012:
Appreciate your loved ones. Friends and family. You never know if they’ll be around tomorrow.

40. Do you have any lost feelings of others?
Yes and no.

41.Quote a song that sums up your year:

Far away, far away
Waste away tonight
Tonight my heart’s on the loose

Talk myself out of feeling
Talk my way out of control
Talk myself out of falling in love
Falling in love with you

42. On a scale of 1-10, how well did 2012 go for you? Why did you give it this rating?
4. I truly struggled to get out of bed every morning and the lack of sleep for the night before was always a bitch. I lost someone I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. I destroyed myself with alcohol and sex. I had no feeling. I lost one of my best friends. I was scared that I would lose my Father, still worrying today about him. I was stalked by another ex boyfriend. Borderline is a punch in the stomach. I really hurt myself but in the end I found a wonderful man who loves me for who I am today and who I was yesterday.

Thank you Brandy for the survey!

Happy New Year to my wonderful readers and friends. 2012, it was a crazy year for sure. One of the hardest years of my life. After going through a break up and a mental disorder. Over the past 12 months, I learnt to put myself back together. There were many ups and downs throughout the year. But I can say that I came out on top. Some of the greatest moments were meeting Norman Reedus, over coming Borderline Personality Disorder, my trip to Canberra, moving out of home and learning who my real friends were. The downs were my Dad’s tumour and prostate, the loss of my friend Jeremy and breaking my Macbook.

Since I last left you guys, a lot has happened. On the night of the zombie walk I met an amazing guy. Although there had been a lot of dating for me through the year I didn’t think anything would’ve come out of meeting my Justin. Yes, he met me dressed as a zombie. After I met him I found out my Dad had a tumour in his hand so I kept my distance from everyone. After a week I bumped into him again, I apolgised for not responding to him and the rest is history. We’ve now been together for over 2 months. He treats me like a princess, always puts me first and makes me smile so much on the inside. I’m truly excited for my future with him. He’s the first boy I’ve been with that I’ve slowed myself down for and have matured. Less partying and socialising. I never thought I could be one of those girls. How times change.

I truly have cut many people out of my life. I have a wonderful relationship with my family, especially my sister Regan. For this horrible year, I’m so thankful to have them in my life every day.

Two other big highlights that happened for me were my favourite band The Living End. These guys did a national tour, performing every album for 7 nights. It was incredible. The band and the crew just treat us like family. I also was lucky enough to meet Tom Felton, who plays Draco Malfoy in Harry Potter. Just last weekend I went on a camping trip to release Jeremy’s ashes. It was hard to say the final goodbye, but it was nice to start this brand new year all fresh. Below are some photos over the past couple of months (Scroll over for descriptions). Happy New Year guys, I’ll see you in the future.

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Hey guys. I found this cool video from the 2012 Adelaide Zombie Walk. My friends and I can be seen at 0:15. But watch the entire video, there were some amazing and creative costumes. It’s an awesome event. You can see all sorts of ages that attend this annual event every year. It gets bigger, and bigger by the year. It’s so much fun, especially covering yourself in fake blood.

Today would’ve been my idol’s 72nd Birthday. None other than Sir John Winston Lennon.

From the age of 15, lets just say I turned into a complete Beatle Nut. All those who know me well, know how much this band means to me. They changed my views in my life and of course on Music. John Lennon was a man who truly inspired me to hang on and be strong. He had a hard childhood. When I learnt about him, I could relate to his past. Even to up to the last years of his life, it was always a struggle. He taught me to appreciate music, to believe in love and to continue in life, even when it’s at its darkest.

Please take the time to watch the little video below. It’s a film clip of George Harrison singing a song called, All Those Years Ago. Which in fact was written for John Lennon a few years after he was shot in New York in 1980. It has some real lovely clips of Mr Lennon.

In other news, this past weekend I did the 2012 Adelaide Zombie Walk. Pretty much what it is, is that you dress up as a zombie and walk through the city. My friends and I decided to dress up as The Beatles in their SGT. Pepper costumes. I was John Lennon of course. Oh and yes, I’ve changed my hair colour and style. I’ll post a recent photo of myself for you as well.