After the break up with my boyfriend. I’ve just wanted to keep it on the down low. I just changed my status on Facebook to Single. I’m just nervous. I don’t want people to freak out and dish me whiney comments. “Oh my god, I’m so sorry. I thought you guys were meant to be. You were going to get married and have twenty babies. And then grow old and play bingo together. OH MY GAWD IT CAN’T BE TRUE”.

And luckily none of those comments are on Facebook yet. I did add some new photos and updated my profile on Facebook. Hoping that would distract people from typing on that little status box. But people sort have worked it out over the past week. On the weekend I had people giving me hugs and love. But to be honest, I am okay. It was a mutual breakup. It was just life, and life goes on. We will always remain friends. And who can predict what will happen in the future. But I feel we both need to be on our own now. I need to grow stronger as a person again. I feel so dependant on him these days. I don’t like that feeling at all. I prefer to rely on myself. I don’t rely on others. People will let you down and always break a promise. Stay true to yourself guys.

Had a nice quiet night with my Mother last night. We watched The Muppet Movie. I’ve come to the conclusion that I want to marry Kermit The Frog.

I had my coffee competition yesterday. It was a lot scarier than last years. I had 4 judges. Christ almighty. I had to make 4 coffees in 3 minutes. I made my coffees in a minute and twenty seconds. I thought that was pretty good. They really enjoyed my coffees, except for my espresso shot. Except they said it was too strong. I asked, you mean too bitter? But no they meant too strong. I had to raise my eyebrow. My overall score was 81%. Last year I scored 85%. But they told my boss judging is a lot harder and stricter this year. I was the last to be judged in my state. The judges told me that I was in a draw with another girl. We’re the top two. So in a month they’re going to work out who deserves to go to the National Comp in Melbourne.

To be honest, I really don’t want to win. I don’t even drink coffee.

Future Music was amazingly fun. My friend Stace, knew one of the guys in a band that was playing on the day and we all got to go backstage. It was unreal, still feels like a dream. A dream come to for me because I got to meet one of my all time favourite bands. Franz Ferdinand. Alex, was the nicest guy in the world. I was a bit down because the lads didn’t play This Boy. It happens to be my favourite song by them. So I was lucky enough to have Alex sing it to me, and Bob doing pretend bass. We all got to go to the afterparty too. OH MY GOSH!

The night was truly amazing, and I really didn’t want to go home. I also had to work the next day. Ouch! I wish I could tell you more, but to be honest…it’s all a blur. A messy day, but I do remember meeting Franz and Prodigy. Holy Moly.

In sad news. My boyfriend and I broke up. Not on bad terms. He still means the world to me, and I want him every day in my life. He truly is a beautiful man inside and out. Due to my personal issues, I just need to be on my own. To be independant, to be strong, to be happy and make my world a little bit brighter again. We might get back together in the future, but for now I really need to sort myself out.

I’ve been so swamped with work. I have a coffee competition tomorrow. And it will be my last. Too much pressure, and I think it’s time to move on from these competitions. I still love making coffee, just don’t like being put on the spot about coffee. I don’t even drink it. But apprantly I make a mean cup of coffee.

I must be off though, I need to do some chores. Some online work. And also study up on coffee questions. I got 85% last year. Need to beat that shitty score.